Submitting an assignment is something I dislike because, despite working best towards deadlines, I'm an oddly self conscious person when it comes to my own creative work. Everything has to be perfect and when the deadline arrives it always feels like there is something more I could have done to make it of a better standard. Whilst I know this is true for most students, this past assignment has taught me especially that it is possible to achieve great things if you are really passionate about whatever it is you have chosen to write on. There is no sense in writing on something because you just want it to sound impressive, you have to bring something to it from a really heartfelt place. It is this care which drives you to iron out the creases and research even the smallest of things. In terms of my last assignment, it meant switching from Omelas to Sonny's Blues simply because when writing about the latter, it felt like things flowed a lot more. It made more sense to write about something I cared about and knew well, opposed to forcing myself to write about something else simply because it was new and different. But every essay is different - it is not necessarily that some are easier to write, it is simply that some seem more challenging at first.
The rest of the week has been quite an odd one. A few bad things have happened, which have been quite a stunt to my happiness and progress. But things are already starting to look up, the more I try to look for the good things the easier it is. Sometimes life is hard, but every day when I wake up I tell myself that I am going to achieve great things. Remembering the sacrifices made to get here and just why/what I am working for makes it easier to stay focused. The harder I work, the easier things will be.
|Halle + HYC rehearsal - Copyright Halle 2017|
Another thing which has been a big part of my week are the Oscars. In the build up to next week, I have been to see pretty much all of the movies which have been nominated now. The last one I saw was The Founder. American history in particular seems to be a theme throughout many of the films this year. After studying The Grapes of Wrath this week in my gender and writing module, it was really interesting to draw comparisons between that movie and the Steinbeck because they both present very different ideals of the American dream and gender values (e.g. strength etc)
My favourite movie (which I went to see for a second time last Wednesday) has to be Hidden Figures. Maybe I talk about it a little too much, but I think it is absolutely fantastic! The soundtrack is constantly on when I am working away in my flat or the library, simply because it has pretty much every emotion you can think of captured in one form or another. I greatly admire how the music stays true to the time whilst also incorporating a lot of beautifully orchestrated soundtrack (courtesy largely of Zimmer) and featuring some really positive pop songs by Pharrell Williams (one of which you can find the link to above) It makes me imagine the starry sky, and what is beyond all of our imaginations. It makes me yearn to know what is out there. And when I have that feeling, whilst it somewhat a combination of being both sad and hpapy, it is easy to remind myself that no matter what things are going to be ok. Because there is a whole universe of possibility out there. And what on earth could be better than that?